Today has probably been my worst day ever as a mom. Hands down. Honestly, if you feel the need to call DCFS after reading this post, more power to ya.
It all started with me working last night. I work the graveyard shift a mere 3 nights a week. Just enough to feel like a real person who is contributing to society, but small enough to still be a full-time stay-at-home momma to my babies. I got home from work and got to sleep for 2 hours before Chase left to work. Then, I got up and started my daily mom duties. Fed everyone breakfast. Got my kids clean and dressed for the day. Well, kinda. It took like 2 hours to convince Jax that he needed to wear pants. After I cleaned up the crazy messes that happen in my family room in just a few short hours of playing, I fed my kids lunch and got Jax ready to hit the road for school.
Jax just started to ride the bus this week. I have been taking him, but decided to give the bus a try. So, the bus arrived and we ran out and off he went. I went back inside and got Ben a dry, clean little bum and put him down for a nap. Since I had only slept 2 hours in the last 24, I, too, had to use Jax's preschool time to sleep. I set my alarm for 2:45pm so I had time to get Ben up and ready, get to Jax's school to get him and meet my mom and Amber. I even set my alarm a few minutes early because today was going to be the first day Jax rode the bus home. But, I needed to get somewhere quickly after school so, I had to be there before the little guy hopped on the bus.
I jumped in my bed and was no doubt asleep in 30 seconds flat. Staying up all night long will do that to ya. Next thing I know, I hear a loud knock at my door. I jump up, and the first thing I see is the clock. 5:00 pm! HOLY $%^@!!!!!!!!! I sprint to the door and there is Jax's afternoon Bus driver. He then went on to tell me that he got lost trying to find my place and kept calling me, but I didn't answer. (....I was totally sleeping instead of being at the police station wondering why in the world my 3 year old wasn't home an hour and a half after school got out!!!!) Really, I should have been at the police station trying to get an Amber Alert rolling.
I probably apologized to the bus driver 1,000 times as we walked out to the bus to get poor little Jax, who had been harnessed into the bus for over an hour!! The poor little dude was sooooo excited to see me and be freed from the bus. I have never felt so bad in my life! The bus driver had seriously been driving around for an hour trying to find where to drop Jax off. And, what was I doing? Snoozing! Seriously?
Everything just worked out as terribly as it could have today. My phone was still on silent from work and all the way out in the kitchen. My mom and Amber had both called me like 20 times. The bus driver had been calling. Chase had called. My alarm was set correctly and didn't go off. Ben, who usually takes a 2 or so hour nap and could be considered a back-up alarm, slept for 5 HOURS and never woke me up. He's never done that in his entire life. Oh. My. Gosh!!!!!!!
So, needless to say my day was pretty out of control. I just couldn't really get control the rest of the day. I seriously couldn't calm down from the panic attack I felt when I woke up to the bus driver banging down my door and seeing 5pm on my clock. I had a visiting teaching appointment at 6:30pm that I totally forgot to show up to. I am actually back at work right now and haven't brushed my hair, changed my shirt, or put on an ounce of makeup since yesterday. Would you please find me a life coach?!
Anyway, I am so relieved to say that my kids are still alive. Jax made it home from school safe and sound. I, on the other hand, just might get fired from my job as a mom.