I'm about to lose it.
I feel like my ship is just about to sink.
Ben has thrush again.
Thus, I have thrush again.
I have never been more miserable. Ever.
When he is hungry I fight back the tears. I don't want to feed him because it hurts so badly.
He also doesn't want to go to bed until at least midnight. This isn't that great when I have to be up, ready, have Ben nursed with him and Jax in tow, and off to work at 8:00am three days a week.
That's early when you have no sleep.
And did I mention poor little Ben has the worst gas on the planet? His little colicy belly is making him hurt. His crying when the his belly is tense is making me hurt.
Now, as for Jax he can't live without Mickey Mouse. He has figured out where the TV power button is. If you even think about turning it off so he doesn't watch TV all day long he throws a fit. Body thrown on the ground, crying. Wonderful.
This having two babies thing is a lot harder than I was anticipating. Every night I pray that I will be more patient and that I will be able to figure this thing out.
But, as for now I am tired. I am in serious pain from thrush. Help!!