The school year is already about 1/8 over, and I haven't stepped into a classroom yet. If you would have told me last January that I would miss it, there is NO WAY that I would have believed you. I loved all my students - especially the hyper talkative ones, and even the little boy who would sometimes fart in class and laugh his head off. Those kids made me laugh. Sometimes they made me want to pull my hair out, but most days I smiled thinking about them. But, being pregnant and teaching just put me in countdown mode. I couldn't wait to be done...with pregnancy and with teaching.
About 3 weeks ago I was driving past an elementary just as school was getting out. I saw all the crazy kids running around and the teachers standing in as crossing guards - which I am proud to say I have done. I realized that although I told Chase quite often last year how excited I was to never go back, I really did miss it.
Isn't it so sad that we don't realize how much we love something or how fun a stage of our life is until it is over? We don't realize how carefree life is until we have to pay our own cell phone bill. We don't realize how much we love our mom until we move out. I didn't realize how much I loved teaching until I was done.
But, I have found a way to fill that void in my life and still get to stay home with Jax - the best of both worlds! I tutor elementary, middle school, and even high school aged students. It is great. They come to my house, and I tutor during Jax's naps. I tutor just 10 hours a week. 5 of the hours are during the after school hours. The other 5 hours are during the day. Two kids in my neighborhood are homeschooled, and I teach them all of their Language Arts curriculum during the day. One is in 6th grade - which is great because I have already taught 6th grade. The other is in 4th grade - which has been so fun getting to know the 4th grade curriculum.
It is kinda funny how I look forward to tutoring everyday. The kids are so cute, and remind me that I really do LOVE to teach - even if I didn't figure that out until I was done. But, it has been so great to tutor and teach my cute little homeschoolers. I am still trying to figure out why it takes me so long to appreciate something or realize how much I love things that I am doing. I hate that a lot of times I don't realize how great something is until it is over. But, I've decided that I am just going to LOVE tutoring because I know that one day when I have more of my own kids I won't be able to do it and will miss it. I am going to love every minute of helping frustrated kids with their math homework and times tables!!! And hey, I am like a times table pro now...don't worry that it has taken me until I am 24....